Hi All,
..this is Pauls story, toward reclaiming a life I want to live, and toward redeeming the 'me' who I put in charge of organizing and running my life while I couldn't, and wouldn't ...
... the story has many starting points, and many crash sites, and I'm choosing to start in the summer of my 61st year of being in this body, about five months ago. My story will weave around and touch on a lot of different, but related topics. The reasons for this are varied; I'm still recovering bits of me that I discovered had been 'put out to pasture / retrenched and pensioned off / sacked / quit', and I've had to negotiate a very 'risky deal' in order to get access to all the bits of me so I can have a really thorough look. I've struck a deal that requires me to 'dance' with a shadowy form, androgynous in shape but with an aura of blackness, and a scent of death .... and I've agreed to this dance with 'mania' in order that I receive back the creative parts of me that had been slowly squeezed out, until I was dry, and stiff, and half dead. The sad part of that realization was that I had done all the squeezing .....
... when I realized I wasn't enjoying my life, to the point of having decided, on three separate nights, that there was a better life on the other side of a speeding truck's headlights, I began a process of asking other people to help me ....
[first test post / will return soon / 9:22 pm, 19/07.11]
Hi Paul, It's nice to meet you. :)
ReplyDeleteThank you for stopping by my blog.
I look forward to reading more of what you have to say! And congratulations on having already started down the path to dehoarding. It's a journey worth taking, for sure, even though I still have so far to go. Glad to have met you on my path. :)